"My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following Your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please You does in fact please You.
And I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this, You will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust You always though, I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for You are ever with me, and You will never leave me to face my struggles alone. Amen." (Thomas Merton) I am sure you have felt this way many times. I know I have. But the truth is that God is with us, leading us on our journey, as long as we remain with him and yield to him. It is like the dream of the man who saw at times two footprints in the sand and at times only one. God reminded him that when he saw only one, it was then God carried him on his shoulder as God led the way.